I don’t know what I was expecting. Thinking it over – maybe I did.
Prior to the long drive to the hut – staying for 4 days with 3 generations – I found it a good idea to reach out individually online to “announce” me being sober on this trip.
Yes, I will bring the bottles of Zinfandel as already agreed. Yes, they should enjoy their cold beers when resting during our walks.
I hoped for their unconditional support. Their understanding. Instead I got questions about this being the right timing. Suggesting I should go for just wine during meals.
This initially left me disappointed. For a split second it gave me second thoughts. And then again : Their responses are actually supportive, they are giving their best to try to understand me. (and frankly perhaps a little disappointment on them missing out a drinking buddy.)
And the most important thing : They are not me. I am the subject matter expert here ! I know any moderation attempt will have my head spinning constantly. Will now focus solely on my “hopes & dreams” by staying true to what I know can work for me.
So glad I am back on track. Looking forward to early mornings without hangovers. Playing with kids 100% present. The drive home without feeling shitty. Looking so much forward – again !
/Soberman – one day at a time – with or without the expected support from relatives.